remember how it used to be / when the sun would fill up the sky / remember how we used to feel / those days would never end / those days would never end / remember how it used to be / when the stars would fill the sky / remember how we used to dream / those nights would never end / those nights would never end / it was the sweetness of your skin / it was the hope of all we might have been / that fills me with the hope to wish / impossible things / but now the sun shines cold / and all the sky is grey /the stars are dimmed by clouds and tears / and all i wish / is gone away ...

I remember the first time I met you, a scared young girl set on fire with anticipation and wondering how it would feel to be evolved in your arms. I remember the first time I saw you, in that parking lot and a surge of hope - hope that you would like me, hope that you would not be sorry, hope that you would find me pretty, hope that all this wasn't some horrible mistake.
I remember every secret meeting and stolen kiss. I remember very lie I told them and where we actually were. I remember every caress and every lick.
I remember the next time I saw you and how the flush on my cheeks wasn't the low grade fever. I remember your arms and your passionate kisses, and how you wanted me so much.
I remember meeting on English soil for the first time. I remember the way everything look greener, and brighter, and bluer just because you were there. Every flower smelled sweeter, every raindrop gentler, and every bird sang louder in your presence.
I remember seeing you the last time, and your strong arms. I held your hand as you drove and playing in Cornwall. I being held by you as I slept. I remember needing you so much, and wanting it all so much. I remember your strong hands holding mine and walking around York. I remember holding you in the hotel room talking about the future and crying ...
I remember leaving you and crying and writing all the way home. I remember crying in the airport for hours during the longest layover of my life.

I miss you so much. I miss your arms and your smiles and your kisses, I miss your calling me silly and holding me. I miss your soft cheeks and gentle hands.