I've purged so much today. I thought I did so well this weekend...
fasting, pills. Then I find out I"ve gained four pounds back and felt
like shit. Not to mention my finance and I are completely falling apart
over the stupidest shit in the world. That only leads me to binge more
and then I purge more and it's just a cunundrom. I'm going to run tomororw.
Hopefully I can run for a hella long time. My goal is to do sprints until I throw
up. Which makes me realise I'm really fucked up at this point.
Also, I've done lots of crap this weekend. I blame some of the weight from
slowing down my metabolism last night at a concert. Radiohead kick ass live
by the way! But the guys in front of me were toking up, and weed slows down
the metabolism ugh. However, I'm sure all that second hand smoke helped me
to sleep though it usually gets me hyper as hell. The worst bit is I did some X.
(I thought after a weekend like that I deserved it.) The weed completely
ruined it though. Oh well. Dancing you'd think I'd burn off some calories but
I guess not. Oh well.
I had pizza earlier. God I'm a pig. PUking doesn't help take that disgusted,
fat feeling away. Also, my insides feel greasy.